So pondering health has made me look at many things as this year ends. Marriage health has taken priority as I realized it isn’t any better than my physical health. the core aspects are suffering in both areas. I’ve adjusted MY SLEEP to accomodate sex which is necessary for the marriage. My core muscles are so out of shape – I have extreme pain in my lower back just trying to sleep – now add sex and I’m worried about being able to walk. The lack of sleep however has brought on another worry; heart palpatations. they lasted for so long last night it scared me. So I’m adjusting my caffine intake, switching to tea, cutting caffine. Steve has developed bronchitis. Outside cutting wood, no coat; now he’s sick. I have some mullein for a tea for him, but not enough. Oh man, what are we doing to ourselves trying to keep a normal life; a not old life? SIGH… I guess we need to figure out if we are ok and can exercise and we need to add cardio to our walking stints. I wish I liked it. I like my husband. I like sex. I like being able to stand and walk and sleep. What’s my problem? Everything hurts. I’m 50. I’m gonna make an awful old person.