So pondering health has made me look at many things as this year ends. Marriage health has taken priority as I realized it isn’t any better than my physical health. the core aspects are suffering in both areas. I’ve adjusted MY SLEEP to accomodate sex which is necessary for the marriage. My core muscles are so out  of shape – I have extreme pain in my lower back just trying to sleep – now add sex and I’m worried about being able to walk. The lack of sleep however has brought on another worry; heart palpatations. they lasted for so long last night it scared me. So I’m adjusting my caffine intake, switching to tea, cutting caffine. Steve has developed bronchitis. Outside cutting wood, no coat; now he’s sick. I have some mullein for a tea for him, but not enough. Oh man, what are we doing to ourselves trying to keep a normal life; a not old life? SIGH… I guess we need to figure out if we are ok and can exercise and we need to add cardio to our walking stints. I wish I liked it. I like my husband. I like sex. I like being able to stand and walk and sleep. What’s my problem? Everything hurts. I’m 50. I’m gonna make an awful old person.


About Morning Knits

I believe in and practice positive living. I love YARN, music, bird watching, history, gemstones, and gardening. I am passionate about the Earth. I am a true homebody. I've said I was Pagan for years to separate myself from a churchy upbringing and judgmental family that left me outside of its bounds. I believe it's our responsibility to tend and protect the Earth. I basically do my thing in a quiet, amused way. I believe in the power of my own hands, the energy of combined prayer, and caring for the earth. I attend a Kingdom focused non denominational Christian Church. I have 6 kids, all home-born and successfully breastfed. The oldest 5 are grown. The youngest is attending Community College and living at home. I'm the oldest of 9, daughter of a missionary mother who lives in Kenya, married to the son of a preacher, with 4 spoiled dogs and and a rescued kitten. Right now, there is small balance after yrs of unemployment. My disability was approved due to degenerative discs, fibromyalgia, and obesity. That last is hard to say. I believe we owe it to ourselves to protect our mental health. It's precious and the one thing we can control. I dislike my own housework and I talk too much. I bought a house in North Carolina and after trying to get my husband here for 6 months, he had a stroke. I'm a two-time caregiver. Steve's got hemiparesis and depression and is learning to walk and trying to use his right side again. It's slow go.
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