Little things

Looking back over the past few months, I feel pretty good about today. My marriage is back on track and doing real well. The animals are  ready to go to new homes. The seedlings I’m growing to sell are up and thriving. The garden is taking shape. Geoffrey is now 6 ft tall. I’ve lost 25 lbs and Saturday, tried on a size 20W pants and zipped them without sucking in my tummy too hard. I’d have bought them but can’t justify $26 for anything! I couldn’t believe I zipped up a size 20. AND, I fit into a men’s 44 jean – that’s down from a 50″.  It keeps a lady going.

Still no jobs and that’s our biggest worry. I am looking as diligently as I can. At 50 and jobless for over 2 yrs, the outlook is not good. Georgia’s official UI rate is 10.2%. That is the only real bone of contention in our household. If I talk about when the money runs out fully, or feeling guilty about what my daughter is doing for us, Steve gets mad at me. He just can’t talk about it. I guess it’s an ego blow for him too. I cry – I can’t help it. V and K want us to have contingency plans should we not be able to keep our house, but there really is no contingency plan. If we loose it, either Steve’s brother will help us or he won’t. There is no one else who can take us in. He also dislikes me with a passion. SIGH. We will have food stamps. V says she and K could take Geoffrey  so he never has to live out of the car – how can parents think about hard things like that? We have until May 2nd and our money runs out. Gods help us. In the big picture, tho, we are pretty positive. Even if we slip back into forclosure status, it will be 9-12 months before we would really be homeless. Something has to manifest –

We are back competing at trivia. We won $100 on Friday in house cash which buys food at the restaurants. Last night, we won $15 cash. Little bits here and there keep us going. The tournaments come up this next month. Cash prizes awarded…last yr, we got $400 from one tournament. While this is Steve’s forte’, I’m not too bad and will play on someone’s team, even if his is filled up. Hoss is happy to have me!

Right now, Steve is reading to me from the 2011 Almanac. I just noticed the blooming dogwood out front of the house. LOL some things don’t change. We share our loves. Viv la difference!

Oh, and I dropped (and scratched the lense of) my glasses. Crap. Right at the point you lower your eyes to read – It’s a big blur, right on everything I need to see. Not good.

This next week, we have 2 nights of trivia and during the days, I think we can focus on the garden and crafts. We have the house payment money for the first. Main worries handled. :O) I expect a good week. Bring it on!


About Morning Knits

I believe in and practice positive living. I love YARN, music, bird watching, history, gemstones, and gardening. I am passionate about the Earth. I am a true homebody. I've said I was Pagan for years to separate myself from a churchy upbringing and judgmental family that left me outside of its bounds. I believe it's our responsibility to tend and protect the Earth. I basically do my thing in a quiet, amused way. I believe in the power of my own hands, the energy of combined prayer, and caring for the earth. I attend a Kingdom focused non denominational Christian Church. I have 6 kids, all home-born and successfully breastfed. The oldest 5 are grown. The youngest is attending Community College and living at home. I'm the oldest of 9, daughter of a missionary mother who lives in Kenya, married to the son of a preacher, with 4 spoiled dogs and and a rescued kitten. Right now, there is small balance after yrs of unemployment. My disability was approved due to degenerative discs, fibromyalgia, and obesity. That last is hard to say. I believe we owe it to ourselves to protect our mental health. It's precious and the one thing we can control. I dislike my own housework and I talk too much. I bought a house in North Carolina and after trying to get my husband here for 6 months, he had a stroke. I'm a two-time caregiver. Steve's got hemiparesis and depression and is learning to walk and trying to use his right side again. It's slow go.
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One Response to Little things

  1. Kathy says:

    I see a lot of challenges heaped upon you yet you’re still finding the good in life….that is not to be overseen because it is huge! I’m so impressed by your attitude and humbled by it too. I’m just thrilled for you about the weight loss and the size 20 because that is absolutely fantastic!!! Wow, you’re almost out of the 20’s….way cool Amber.

    I’m so glad you’re blogging so I can stay connected with you…….I always want to know where you are and how you’re doing. love you, friend.

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