She’s done it again, all the way from across the world. On her Facebook page is her public apology to her kids, right?
so everyone gets the message she’s dying…not one of us responded in a nasty way. We were all concerned, sent her notes, etc. I asked her to please check in as soon as possible because we are worried and Kim scared us all to death telling us she was dying and could already be dead. No one wants that.
Seriously, I expected a tiny note saying she was sorry she’d worried us – something showing a little love – instead she posted this -” If you can’t give someone roses while they are living, don’t cry when they die. No time for them when they are still around…if you cared you would not neglect/reject them. Don’t waste your tears when they die…admit you didn’t really care anyway.”
I have so had it with all the manipulation. Andrea felt slapped in the face. No efforts anyone ever makes are acknowledged, she just does the public display so she looks like a fucking martyr. Steve gets so mad at me because I get drawn into this shit. How am I supossed to feel? My sister Kim texts with how she can’t loose Mama, she’s her best friend, they skype and email every day – I asked mama to email with me, take our relationship off of Facebook because we always end up fighting and she said no, she couldn’t afford to write or email. FINE. She Skypes with Andrea’s girls, but has NEVER skyped with me or mine – EVER. She won’t skype with Andrea or Chris either. It’s all this arrogant show. I wish I could say the rest of this and have it come out right – she loves black people. She shows off pictures of Chris’s son as her black grandbaby. In our family, you either have to to be dark skinned, or perfectly blonde and blueeyed to be worth anything. It’s how she’s always been. We feel this divide and it hurts us as her children. It’s not a secret – it’s so freaking blatant I could scream. We could all scream – except her 2 blonde kids and her 2 mixed blood grands. Goddamn it hurts.
So she’s on an oxygen tank, she’s not doing well, Her heart and kidneys are failing, but she’s home. I don’t know anything else. I appreciate all the prayers and thoughts and energy. It meant alot to ME. Now I’m blocking her. It was better when her account was deactivated.
Is there a planet alignment that says asshole parents raise your heads RIGHT NOW? I don’t want to know this stuff. I know she’ll die soon. I know she’ll die in Africa. I know she doesn’t think I’m good enough to live – and It’s not gonna be any different no matter what I say or do and there is nothing I can say that hasn’t been said. So piss on it.
I want to love her and let things go, but she just doesn’t make it possible. So I will release her to her God and go live my life. I am sure the drama will creep in again…but I am not going to open the door to it. NO.
I woke up in so much pain and with such stiffness – stress kills me and she’s the QUEEN of it.