You can’t say I haven’t tried

8 months after the stroke and he’s leaving … The man stood in my living room screaming at me how he’s going to kill my daughter over a text message she sent. Yes, she was mad at me, and yes I showed him after days of being accused of not trusting him and hiding things. There is no winning here. He says he’s leaving and this time,  stroke or not, I’m letting him go. His family can deal with him. I’m sorry he thinks he’s wasted his life with worthless people.  I can’t win with a man who never forgives or forgets. So that’s that.


About Morning Knits

I believe in and practice positive living. I love YARN, music, bird watching, history, gemstones, and gardening. I am passionate about the Earth. I am a true homebody. I've said I was Pagan for years to separate myself from a churchy upbringing and judgmental family that left me outside of its bounds. I believe it's our responsibility to tend and protect the Earth. I basically do my thing in a quiet, amused way. I believe in the power of my own hands, the energy of combined prayer, and caring for the earth. I attend a Kingdom focused non denominational Christian Church. I have 6 kids, all home-born and successfully breastfed. The oldest 5 are grown. The youngest is attending Community College and living at home. I'm the oldest of 9, daughter of a missionary mother who lives in Kenya, married to the son of a preacher, with 4 spoiled dogs and and a rescued kitten. Right now, there is small balance after yrs of unemployment. My disability was approved due to degenerative discs, fibromyalgia, and obesity. That last is hard to say. I believe we owe it to ourselves to protect our mental health. It's precious and the one thing we can control. I dislike my own housework and I talk too much. I bought a house in North Carolina and after trying to get my husband here for 6 months, he had a stroke. I'm a two-time caregiver. Steve's got hemiparesis and depression and is learning to walk and trying to use his right side again. It's slow go.
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4 Responses to You can’t say I haven’t tried

  1. bicky says:

    Again, really? Is he dehydrated? Don’t let him affect you so strongly, his brain is still healing itself. Breathe and love, lovey.

  2. bicky says:

    actually i do believe you could have him hospitalized at this point. he definitely cannot complete all self care on his own. you might want to give his doctor a call or start at social services level and see if someone can help you get him help, dont you have medical power of attorney anyway? if he was in a rehab center(nursing home) they would be working with him to some degree on mental health issues. honestly, if you are not a nurse, you have NO business trying to manage a stroke patient on your own. he might have fought you on a rehab facility, but this kind of behavior and its subsequent effects on the family are EXACTLY why he needs it in those first stages after a stroke. and id be willing to bet, he could have had more smaller ones since hes been there with you and you cannot tell it yourself. what was it you said….ASK for help. its time to admit that you cannot carry this man around on your back, he is taking you down with him, so to speak. get HIM the help HE needs and it may very well save YOU as well.

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